Fashion Show

Well Friday was the fashion show. I was so worried about it! The night before I didn't sleep well at all. I just kept thinking about how my arms and legs were going to look to everyone. Friday morning I went to the gym and worked my butt off. It was like a last ditch effort to tone my arms and legs. I'd been working out those areas the last couple weeks but thought maybe I could do a little more that morning. When I got home I made the mistake of getting on the scale. 161.5 lbs! I was so upset. I know I haven't been that great with counting my calories (I've been going over a little every day) but I didn't think I'd been doing that bad! And I'd been running and working out every day. I felt deflated. I felt like "why even try". And it showed in my food choices the rest of the day. I wasn't the best eater that day at all.

Come 5:30 it was time to go to the running shop for the show. My stomach hurt. I kept trying to tell myself it would be fine and I wish I'd listened because it really was. I went there, they took me in the back, showed me what I'd be wearing (capri's and a short sleeve shirt-perfect), found me some shoes and then I sat in this room with the other "models". They were all really nice. Very down to earth people. No one was totally thin and trim and "the perfect body". It was so nice! Just normal every day runners. A few of them were talking about runs they'd done the last weekend and ones that were coming up the next day. It was fun to listen to. A whole room of runners! I just sat and listened. Then when the time came all we had to do was walk do the isle, get up on this stool, show our clothes, then get down and walk out. It was easy and there were only about 20 people there which made it even easier.

Afterwards Kim and I went out to dinner (Leah was staying the night with Karen). I was on cloud nine! I was so happy I'd put myself out there and said yes to that. It really a lot of fun and I enjoyed being out of my comfort zone for just a big. Plus the free stuff we got for doing it was a really nice long sleeve running shirt and running socks. I was really excited for the running socks. I'd wanted some but never could spend $12 on one pair of socks. I couldn't wait to try them out. I wasn't planning on running Saturday but with the new shirt and socks I really wanted to!

That night after dinner we stopped at got some frozen yogurt. I decided this was going to be my last day for going overboard with my food. Starting tomorrow I would really give counting calories a chance. I would see if I stayed on track could I loose weight this way. And it meant counting fruits and veggies too. So I ate my Chinese food and my frozen yogurt with a little more appreciation of what I was eating-knowing the next day I would be back on track.

Saturday morning Kim and I slept in until 8am. He got up to do some things and I put my new running stuff on. I decided to do a 4 mile run with some hills in it. Bad hills at the end too but that was the challenge of it! I drove to the spot, walked the 1/4 mile to the where I wanted to start and took off. Well about 2 miles into it I thought I was going to die! My body felt so heavy! All the terrible food choices I'd made the day before felt like they were all in a backpack on my back weighing me down. I decided again I needed to get back on track and eat better. I could have bad foods (aka fast food) but I needed to cut it back (we were going out a lot lately) and watch what else I ate before and after the fast food.

I ended up walking around 2.50 miles. I walked a couple blocks and then took off again. I hated how heavy I felt. And also my long sleeves were going to be the death of me! It was warm already at 8:30 am...a lot warmer than I thought. When I rounded the last corner I was coming up on the last 3/4 mile and the hardest part. I made it up probably 80% of the hill on that road. I stopped twice-once for 1 minute and once for 1.5 minutes. I was determined to run up the hill as much as I could and I did.

I was really happy about my run. And I was feeling really good about counting calories; about being able to stay on track. And I have. Saturday I was under, yesterday I was only off by about 50 and today I've kept on track too. I have a meeting today and they usually feed us dinner so I've already figured out my points for that meal (they feed us pretty much the same thing each time). I even left some wiggle room.

My run this morning was great too. I slept in and then took Leah to the gym daycare around 10am and ran around Salem. It felt so good to run in the morning, after I'd had some time to walk around and get stretched out. My time was good even with some hills and some uphill roads. I'm down to a 10 minute mile-less than that if it's mostly downhill. I want so bad to beat my last half marathon time but really I'm just excited about training again and maybe getting back into shape. Today was day 1 of my 10 week training. Day 1 down...many more to go. :-)